April 2011
2 posts
The two things I hate the most are the person she brings out in me, and how that failed relationship shadows every close connection. Even just talking to her, I’m always these days on edge, waiting for the next comment, explosion, guilt laden demand hidden behind every request. She makes me walk on eggshells, and then gets angry when I do it too obviously… which just puts me more on...
So tired of being this anxious, wondering if maybe I’d be better off medicated somehow… for the first time seriously, because it’s not getting better. Every time you mention that you’re staying over there I panic. And pretend everything’s fine, because how messed up is that. And unfair. And how much I need someone I trust to sleep with isn’t something I’m...
